Ok so I don't really need advice just a listening ear(its not really in order so you'll have to bear with me )...

Ive lived in the same town all my life, been around the same people and had the same friends and always had a crush on ONE guy everyone knew I did but him...

He was 6 years older than me and when the time came that we could actually be together he started liking me back complete and utter happiness right! he would come over and hang out bought me my favorite book and movie and looked like he could be Edward from Twilight! not to mention the SWEETEST guy ever! everyone loved him he was alittle shy and didnt talk much but he was smart and would help me w/ math when I was younger and I thought we would last forever.

One night he came over and was helping my family with a yard sale and we ended up in the back yard laying on the grass talking about everything from music to growing up and his family and my family and everything we could think of and that was when I realized he DID like me.

He then came over a couple nights later and my dad and mom brought him out to the deck (without me there) and talked about me, finding out he did like me and then when i came outside we talked and i realized he really truly cared for me. I remember loving the song "Tuesday Morning" by Michelle Branch because Tuesday was the first morning I KNEW he liked me Cheesy right...

A few months l8er we had our first kiss...and he told me he loved me We promised we would be together forever...and then the poison started to sink in...

we started going farther touching wise and I wasn't really ready but i never said no. (just to clear up if I HAD said no he would've stopped) He was never pushy or mean just curious I guess. both of us were virgins..still are but it started getting harder and harder to be around him because I new what he wanted every time he came over. it seemed like for 3 months he was over EVERY day and I would try to tell me mom "you know maybe he should go home" but no one would ever get the hint finally it got to the point were I didn't want him there at all!

I think i really started to want out when we would talk to him about my family getting on my nerves and he would say well much longer and you wont have to be around them anymore. (WHAT DID THAT MEAN??!!?) the time he didn't spend with me he would be with his friends which i didn't mind at all i wanted him to hang out with friends but he would whisper and hide things about where he was going what they would do and i didn't mind not knowing i trusted him but why did he have to whisper about it??

We went on a trip once me my mom sister her husband and us.. and got in a big fight about him trying to buy a 2000 dollar guitar for me and when I said no he got very mad walked off and wouldnt speak. he would always by me things everything if i talked about something even if i didnt want it he would by it! like he was trying to buy my love. and at the end of the trip my worst memory of all was i didnt want to touch him.but he made me that time...

one night he came over to hang out and we were watching tv and he was sitting with his arm around me and i just wanted him to go away and thats not healthy! so i moved his arm and sat all the way in the corner of the couch and he would keep scooting till he was practically on top of me!!!!

but the last few days of our relationship were terrible. after that night i told him i just needed alittle space and he seemed to understand so i decided to go spend the day with my mom and sister and my phone was off...when i turned it back on i had a text from him asking where i was when i said w/ my mom and sis and he said "So Is it easier for you to spend time with your family then with me?"....i didn't appreciate that text very much...

finally i told my mom everything... and crying and tired @ 3 o clock in the morning i even passed out. I wish i could take it all back i was to young didnt understand what love is and still dont and even though i know all men arent like that i dont want to ever have a relationship ever again there is to much at stake to just open your heart to someone when you have no idea what they'll do with it

and now that its all over i see him three times a week and the moment he gets a chance he comes and tries to talk to me and my family, likes everything i do on facebook texts my mother constantly asking her to tell me hes sorry and once because she didnt reply back he said "never mind i'll just deal with it!" like its me fault! i dont now what to do and i cant help but think hes right and its my fault and im the one that hurt him.. i just want to know what went wrong or why or what i can do now or how to not hurt him anymore...

For a perfectionist or perfect man, everything in his life must be done literally perfectly devoid of any mistakes or imperfections, no failings or deviations, no slip ups, no inconsistencies. Constantly on alert, he is striving to be the best. Perfectionism is his way of living, always wishing to reach the ideal. But to be honest, 'Perfect Man' is an illusionary term and tough to attain designation. As a human beings, we are all prone to error, frailty and imperfections one way or another.

its not your faulght if you didnt like what he was doing you should have told him if he was pushing you when you didnt want it and he left when you sed no then he doesnt want you he just wants your body and thats not write